Little bit of this and that

We celebrated the fourth yesterday at Guilford. It’s been so hot and muggy outside that, we were literally so uncomfortable until like 6:59pm. If we stayed put in a one area it was fine but other than that I was sweating in places I shouldn’t be (like my cheeks).

Kavita had bought Veer an inflatable pool and we tried to fill that up yesterday but that was a big FAIL.  We didn’t have a pump and there is not enough air in my lungs to manually fill that. No sir.

The last few weeks have been really tough. Veer is still getting night terrors and in the last week he has become the pickiest eater. He wants snacks through out the day and has completely stopped eating grilled cheese and bhakari/puri. It’s so frustrating because he’s so skinny. Sometimes I see him stumble and it makes think he is stumbling because he’s weak. I know that’s probably not the case but I just wish he would start eating a regular meal again. Is this part of the terrible twos? 

He’s also become super attached to me lately. I’ve noticed when we go to either of the grandparent’s house now he won’t let go of me for the first couple of minutes. Before he could care less about me when others were around, now he wants me to hold him and once he’s familiar with them he is okay. Last month I was away for two nights at a conference and when I got back from the conference this super attachment started. That Sunday following the conference we went to Ron and Hetal’s house for a BBQ and he would not let go of me. He wanted to play with the kids and me. And that has me started that maybe he needs a sibling. He sees Anand and I like 50% of the time and when he is home, he gets 100% of our attention. If he had a sibling to play with, I feel like he would be better. That being said, I’m just not ready to have another child. Like me -physically, mentally, economically, just over all. I wish I could pause him from growing up and in the next two years or so when I am ready to have another child, I can un-pause him so there is not a big age gap. 

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