Are you still out there?

Talk about a hiatus. I am not saying I am back regularly blogging but i just need a creative outlet, and sort of a place to make sure my stories exist even after i am long gone... in 80 years or so!

Life has gotten a lot more hectic. The last time I wrote we were a family of 3. Now we are family of 4 with Veer and Ishaan (welcome to the world my baby boy) who are 5.5 and 1.5 year old, respectively.  I feel like Ishaan will get shafted in a lot of things. I love and treat both of the boys equally but we just don't make a big deal about a lot of things Ishaan does for the first time. I guess that come with having an older siblings. I feel guilty at times but justified at other times.

Veer has grown into such a little man with many personalities. He is an amazing older brother. He is always looking out for Ishaan. He recently got glasses that make him look wiser and more mature.

Ishaan is a ball of energy. He is veers shadow. Whatever Veer is doing, he would like to do. He has a personality of his own. He doesn't talk yet but he's very opinionated.

Round 2, Week 6

Yup.  

We’re doing this again. It wasn’t as “fast” as the first time around. I think we have officially been trying for 3 months before we found out we were expecting. But then again we weren’t really trying very hard. Oh, so many pun, so little time. 

The day we found out I was driving home from work and I was supposed to get my period that day. I usually always get it a couple of days early so I thought it was odd but didn’t think anything of it since the last couple of months have been sorta irregular. Anyway, as I was driving home from work, I thought I should take a test just in case because as an added bonus if we are pregnant, it would be the day we would remember as the day we found out and  10 years to the day when we met (November 6^th – in case my future self cant remember, which is very likely seeing as I cant remember anything anymore).

It feels different this time around or maybe I have forgotten the initial months. We are very excited but I know what’s to come… the first trimester. I already have some symptoms. I feel generally lethargic and lazy. Last time I would get chills in the evening, now I get chills during the day- right after lunch.  We have our initially appointment with the patient educator next week and then she will schedule an ultrasound. We are officially 6 weeks, which according to my calculations gives us July 14^th as a due date.

Welcome, Fall!

I think the year was 1999 and Natalie merchant was on the radio. Her song Kind and Generous was a hit. Things were so different. Life was a little less hectic and chaotic. The summers felt like summer and fall was months away. When did we start fast forwarding thru summer? I had such big plans to enjoy the summer with Veer. I wanted to take him to the beach, the zoo, to NYC… I did none of those things. Little Veer is a rascal now. We are knees deep into the terrible twos. He’s become super picky about his food. I can probably count on one hand what he eats aside from snacks. Here he is in his school photo; I love this picture despite the cheesy background.

Welcome fall!

life.

With his second birthday approaching, Veer is getting very naughty. We found out today he’s been hitting and puling hair at school. It seems normal but I don’t have to have a kid who does that. Those are bratty kids. I refuse to have a brat. He did a little bit of pushing and shoveling this past weekend in Parsippany. He pushed baa around because he didn’t know how to say “please move”. He is an angel with us, but when he is with others he misbehaves. Brat. 

Veer tickling Baa

Baa & Veer

He now recognized the route to his school, so as soon as we are near traffic light by his school, he starts saying, “No, no, no…” it’s actually pretty funny and cute when he does that. He is talking now but not as much I as I expected. I guess it’s a blessing because one day he will start and won’t stop talking. I can already tell he is going to be a chatterbox. 

Life in the household is pretty calm. Wait, did I just say that? Now that the store is sold and Anand has a 9-5, we actually have a part of our life back. We can do things on the weekend and have dinner together. Or dare I say, go shopping and spend time with Veer during the weekdays.

Our view from Lowe's Hotel in Philadelphia this past weekend

Coloring table

We got Veer a little Mickey Mouse table yesterday and he is in love with it. He drank his milk there last night and this morning. He also is coloring at the tables. He’s really into crayons right now. The first thing he wanted to do after watching (Yogi &) Booboo in bed was to color.

 

Little bit of this and that

We celebrated the fourth yesterday at Guilford. It’s been so hot and muggy outside that, we were literally so uncomfortable until like 6:59pm. If we stayed put in a one area it was fine but other than that I was sweating in places I shouldn’t be (like my cheeks).

Kavita had bought Veer an inflatable pool and we tried to fill that up yesterday but that was a big FAIL.  We didn’t have a pump and there is not enough air in my lungs to manually fill that. No sir.

The last few weeks have been really tough. Veer is still getting night terrors and in the last week he has become the pickiest eater. He wants snacks through out the day and has completely stopped eating grilled cheese and bhakari/puri. It’s so frustrating because he’s so skinny. Sometimes I see him stumble and it makes think he is stumbling because he’s weak. I know that’s probably not the case but I just wish he would start eating a regular meal again. Is this part of the terrible twos? 

He’s also become super attached to me lately. I’ve noticed when we go to either of the grandparent’s house now he won’t let go of me for the first couple of minutes. Before he could care less about me when others were around, now he wants me to hold him and once he’s familiar with them he is okay. Last month I was away for two nights at a conference and when I got back from the conference this super attachment started. That Sunday following the conference we went to Ron and Hetal’s house for a BBQ and he would not let go of me. He wanted to play with the kids and me. And that has me started that maybe he needs a sibling. He sees Anand and I like 50% of the time and when he is home, he gets 100% of our attention. If he had a sibling to play with, I feel like he would be better. That being said, I’m just not ready to have another child. Like me -physically, mentally, economically, just over all. I wish I could pause him from growing up and in the next two years or so when I am ready to have another child, I can un-pause him so there is not a big age gap. 

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